why is it that it's so obvious to people that you are being so freaking sarcastic to me and you don't even realise it? is a little just a little encouragement so difficult? why won't you recognise my efforts and attempts to study. you are just a freaking demoralising freak in my life. just get out will you. it has come to the point where i get nightmares just thinking about you. why has it become this way? it is not that i'm not worried about my As. i'm freaking worried. but in front of you, i have to put on a brave front. a strong front. something that would shield me from all your remarks. had i not put on that front, i think i would have crumbled down right in front of you, the way i just broke down in the middle of tanjong pagar the day i got my math paper back. to face you, i had to be extra strong. but there's a limit to how strong i can be. drina is a human. i'm not a robot. i have feelings too you know. you can't control me forever. sometimes i just feel like running away. away from all these rubbish i get at home. maybe just maybe. it'll help a little.

drina is a stupid girl who doesn't know anything. i'm just so stupid. wtf. screw this life.