time spent with her made me realise that i had so much fun in st nicks. especially during the last year spent there. made me realise that although i kept insisting on a transfer in the first two years spent there, it wasn't at all a wrong decision to go there in the first place. I think it was the only place that made me laugh so hard, study so hard and play so hard. not vj.

haha sorry mommy for ps-ing you today ):

i was really really glad for my econs results. but someone isn't. i thought that econs would save me from the screaming/shouting. apparently it didn't. what can i do? the two subjects that i studied the hardest for (chem and math) didn't do well at all. totally. what am i supposed to do now? she probably thinks that i'm some slacker who spends too much time on the phone. she probably thinks that i have a boyfriend too (which is totally not true). okay i didn't want to tell her my results immediately after i got it back coz i know that if i don't have a subject to cover that up, i would be DEAD. like totally dead. no more social life from tomorrow onwards kind of thing. apparently i was wrong. okay at least she didn't say that i'm spending too much time outside *beams*

you know sometimes i wish you would read this. then it wouldn't be so hard talking to you. i know how much effort i put into studying for that damn test. yes i know i kind of got distracted during the last week. but look. I FREAKING STUDIED AND DID ALL THAT I COULD before that. 1 week of studying a bit lesser wouldn't have been that bad. i don't show how i really feel in front of you now coz you wouldn't understand a single piece of shit that i say. look at how you treated my SAT results. you just didn't care about my feelings at all and just said that i was lousy. so what if i really am? can you just be supportive for once? i bet you didn't even know that i cried because of what you said. well. after all you don't really seem to care. what difference does it make?