and now, i really think it was a bad idea to start talking to him again. damn. it kind of takes up too much of my time and it really really distracts me. HOW NOW BROWN COW? why didn't i just keep my hands of the keypad? after it's been one year already. one whole freaking year without talking/meeting up. you are free. but i'm not. attempt to understand that. now i don't even think that i will be able to ignore you again. it will be another guilt action and i know how much it will kill both of us. this is terrible. how am i supposed to choose between studies and you? just give me two more weeks and when i'm done with ct1, maybe i will spend more time with you. maybe my friend is right. why am i acting like your gf when i'm not? and why do you still treat me as that. maybe celebrating your birthday for you was a bad idea. maintain our distance dear friend.

this is making me very irritated. come on drina. buck up. you and i both know we can do this.