selfish me wants the j1s to stop flooding the canteen ): i really hate crowded breaks. not enough time to eat. i was just thinking, why live life so stressfully? everyday's like a routine. school, (training/tennis), home, tutorials, sleep. how fun is that? why bother making ourselves boring people since we are going to die off eventually? what if i die without taking any major exams. this kind of brings me back to the time when i was in primary school. after taking PSLE, a student from my school died in a car accident. like bang! and you are dead. she had a whole life ahead of her. she was from the smartest class in school and teachers kind of expected her to do well. well, what if that happened to me? would i have said that i lived life to the fullest? i have so many things that i've yet to do, yet to say. when was the last time i sat down and had a really good chat with somebody? maybe the 16PF is right. i care too much about myself and relationships with people are often not as good as they could have been. i find it really hard to keep in contact with people. we may have been best friends in school. but after we moved to different schools, we kind of fell apart.