life after promos is like after Os. you suddenly feel free. but there's like something missing in your life. i guess i'm weird. i kind of miss being kan-chiong as tiffany will put it, i miss the kind of satisfaction i get when i get something right (:

thinking back on this year, i think i have yet to find out what i really want. vj was my dream school, yes i got in. i know i would be the happiest here. i joined tennis, thinking that it was what i wanted too. but soon, i realise that this is not what i really want. being in a school tennis team was my dream. maybe because all the people in the tennis class that i was in were in a school team and that seemed fun! and the tennis team that i was in was filled with fun and nice people. but look at the team that i'm in now. sure they are wonderful players, good at the game and all. but we are not bonded. it kind of changed my preception of tennis. i used to miss training, and can't wait for the next training to start, even though it meant waiting an entire week. now i'm dreading it! just the thought of talking to the rest of them seemed difficult. i'm not close to them at all. maybe after next year's season, it will be better. just like what happened this year. but wait what's the use. the people that i became really close to, we just seem to drift apart. look at the j2s now. i'm not close to them at all now! and i thought that we had some really great times together. i miss being in pa. i miss the feeling of togetherness. all i want is for the cca to be bonded. and i think that i do not deserve the posts of secretary and treasurer at all.

oh man i sound like a tiffany!
(take heed of my own advice and STOP BROODING!)

tmr's some stupid relationship workshop. i bet it's really useless.

OH THIS GOES OUT TO ALL MY JUNIORS (AND YOU COUSIN :D) on behalf of the yellow badges

Os are coming soon! time to start revising real hard! it doesn't matter what you get for prelims. take it as a lesson learnt and look forward. yes! you guys can do it! keep your goal in mind in front of you and STRIVE FOR IT! you always have the entire pa behind you (: we will be there to catch you if you fall (: