i don't know why, but i suddenly dreamt of chang as in yihsin chang not gay shit chang. i think the dream made me realise how much i would miss her if she were gone. she was the closest friend i've ever had, and i would be sad if she were to leave. i dreamt that she would be gone mid of next year. if that dream were to be reality, i think that it would be freaky and no i don't want it to happen. chang i know you will never read this, but i want you to know that you are the greatest friend that i've ever known and if you were to fly to america and not come back, i think i would be in a daze. of course life would go on, like it always has, but there would always be a missing part of me. i miss the times we had wrestling, playing as well as studying. arrg. i know we haven't talked for a long time! but that's alright we are busy people (: even though you will definately be going overseas and probably not be coming back, distance can't do us apart right? we can always talk yea? hope we meet up soon

i've been having this horrible headache that refuses to go away. i don't know why. stupid headache! GO AWAY! i know it's because i keep staring at stupid computer screens. blame it on the stupid education system and the damn emphasis on project work.

i want to go to a overseas university. but i can't. I NEED A SCHOLARSHIP!!! i can't stand this pressure cooker that i'm in. every damn thing is important and cramped into our tiny brains. why can't they shift the emphasis away from route learning? why not the emphasis on experimental learning? give me a break.