happy things first :D

weiyi's birthday! we sure had fun dunking him into the koi pond (or rather he jumped in by himself), soaping his hair and carrying him to the koi pond. haha he's such fun to be around. after that we went marina AGAIN. and donut ice-cream at yoshinoya was awesome! just that i won't pay 1.80 for it (:

congrats to 09s43, namely the 'hot brothers' group and clara's group for winning first and runner's up for the econs project :D haha and the 'hot brother's production' is super funny (: sorry for the slip shot work on my part though. i just couldn't put my mind into doing the project. kind of got distracted every single time i tried to concentrate on it.

now unhappy things:

piano lesson now has become a chore. every time i step into my teacher's house, i get nervous, don't feel like playing and i wonder what the hell am i doing there. i don't hate playing the piano. in fact i like playing things that are not exam oriented. okay look. i really did try my best to practice. i told myself that i would put in my best for the week, practice EVERY SINGLE DAY WITH THE TICKING THING just like you told me so. and i thought that i improved and was quite happy with it.

but during the lesson, you just had to burst my confidence bubble. i'm sorry that i can't hear what i'm playing. normally, i don't even know what notes i'm playing. i'm just playing what my eyes read and what my hands want to press. in my mind, those are the correct notes. a semi-tone apart, what the diff. i really can't hear it. you just keep picking on my mistakes. why not try to make me play without the metronome and don't ask me to do that after picking out all my mistakes. OBVIOUSLY i would be extremely nervous and will breakdown continously. i really don't know how to improve anymore. i really did the best that i could in that week. put my heart into practicing and you tell me that it is no different from the previous week which was sucky. ouch that really hurt. maybe i should just stop. after all, the way that you put it, no one can help me. i know i suck. yes shout it at me. i'm a DISGUSTINGLY HORRIBLE HOPELESS PIANO STUDENT.

taekwondo today was not much better. just because i came late doesn't mean that you have to punish me. i came here to help wong sir teach. not you. and you think that you are great? NO. that's a super big N-O for you information. you can't even teach black tape pattern properly and you say that we are a bunch of lousy black belts. what about looking at yourself. go memorize the korean names for all the patterns. obviously you got it all wrong. yok is 6 NOT 7!! see i know it better than you do. it's not our fault that the student's don't listen to us. we have no authority over them. we are NOT allowed to punish them. so they will climb all over our heads. what i want from them is respect me when they are supposed to. and i'm sure at least 50% of them do that. i'm not authoritarian like you. i reason with them. if they don't want to listen to me, i will just ignore them. that's what wong sir told me to do. so what have you got to say for yourself? huh arrogant guy? and YES, we will come down for grading. see how much help you need. there are already so many of you guys there. we will just be stoning at one corner. oh well. that's your fault. you asked us to come down.