Friday, September 12, 2008 ♥
♥ 4:45 AM
we should have done this a long time ago. if we had, maybe, i won't be feeling so shitty now. i really feel like i'm down in the dumpssometimes i wondered and question if you ever cared for me. sometimes, you really piss me off. i just don't say it, coz i don't want us to quarrel, us to fightsometimes i really feel that you are an alien to me. i feel that i don't know you, feel that you are so distanti realised tonight rather this morning that i was sort of rightanyway, i just glad that it's over. i really can't stand another time like this. it's like hearing something that i don't want to hear. and the point is that i can't run away. it's so easy for you to say let's not talk to each other anymore, delete my number. and i'm sorryask yourself, how many times in this month have you said sorry to me? it's so numerous that it doesn't mean anything to me nowand what's the point of deleting your number when you very well know that it is stuck inside my head, it doesn't make sense to delete it. what i'm just erasing is just the outside, the shell, deluding myself that i will and can forget about you. but that's just running away and i'm tired of runninggo and reflect what you have actually done to me. it doesn't make sense if you just apologize for no reason. not that it would make a difference anymore. i really what's your purpose but i don't care anymorei really don't and don't try to make me tokeep to your promise and not disturb me anymore
the SMART ONE. ♥
♥ The Lover.