i really need to CONTROL my emotions! arrrg i cnnt jus go about with a black face every single lesson. i need to be more unbiased. haiz my life is in a mess. when did i become so rude to her? y can't i control my anger in front of her? i don't know what has become of me. i really want to change but i don't know how to. whenever she says something that i don't like i will jus vent all my anger on her. when that happens, i jus feel as though there's something really heavy inside me. i want to get it all out, but i can't cause she's still my teacher and i cnnt jus shout at her. like today, i totally blew it. i jus wanted to tell her that it's not her lesson and that it's physics extended and she had to do was to irritated me and i lost my temper at her again. maybe i should go and see a shrink and see how to manage my temper. or maybe i just have a split personality.

anyway besides the unhappy incident, there was something that we did as a class today that was extraordinary that happened today. during maths lesson, which was after morning jog, we did not have maths lessons but instead we ran/walked round the track for 1 hr. thanks to grace! but it was quite fun and i didnt' know that i actually could run non-stop for 1 hr! i was the only one in class who ran for 1 hr. xixian gave up coz she had ballet lesson the nxt day. suprisingly, i did not feel tired after running as well and during the last part where i sprinted, my leg felt so light, and it doesn't even feel like it belongs to me ((: