it's only 3 days and i already miss u so much. i think the most i can stand is 1 wk. really disappointed with my o level chinese results. i'm like 1 of the 6 who got b3. damn freaking lousy. nvm i shall get 8A1s this year! and prove myself. even though my mom says it's not possible. but i CAN DO IT! haha. self motivation. i must be crazy.
u know everytime i talk to dong ran, my thoughts keep going back to u and i finally admitted to her that i actually still have feelings for u. i know u must be thinking that i'm crazy. some how i have this feeling that after i finish my Os, u would not be there. u would be gone, gone with another person. actually i'm okay with it. so if u find another person jus tell me kay?
that night of the O level result, i cried like a million times. the first few was coz i was disappointed. the next few was coz i was damn touched. i didn't know that there are people out there who actually care for me, care more for me than my parents. when i told my parents bout my results, their actions were like b3 only ar? i was expecting an A2 from u. but people that i know, like dongran, they were actually sad coz i'm sad. they share my emotions. and that's what i really admire her bout. she had an A1, yet she was not able to be happy, be joyous bout it coz though i hid my emotion, she could tell that i'm really sad. when i read her blog post, my tears actually jus rolled down my cheeks. i didn't even know y i was crying. i guess it's these little actions that really motivate me, make me a stronger person.